"Holy" Shit.

One of my relatively good friends just sent me a text message asking, "If you died today, are you 100% sure you'd go to heaven?". 

If you ever feel compelled to ask me a question like this, don't. It's a quick way to lose a friend. I'm the only one out of my roommates that he sent that to. Implying that I lack faith in a God who's love I deserve. 

A) JUST because I'm a self proclaimed "Messianic Jew", doesn't mean I'm practicing a fake religion. Look into it Mr/Ms Christianity. You'll actually find that I still share the same beliefs as you do, being a Christian. I only practice it differently. I believe in the Messiah. I have full faith in the Lord's plan. I strongly believe in everything happening for a reason. It's pretty much what I live by. 

B) WHO THE HELL am I to say if I'm going to Heaven or not?? I know that I have accepted the Lord J.C. as my savior. I believe in him as the Father, Son, and H.G.. I place all my faith in Him and turn to Him for guidance and aid. I do unto others as I would prefer them do towards me. I prefer to look at the world through the eyes of someone who does good for the sake of doing good. For the sake of helping people that need a little help. For the sake of hoping that perhaps a deed that I do for people or peoples, or creatures, or organizations, or relationships, etc etc... will be seen and received as an example to follow. I do not live my life as a good person for fear  of going to Hell. And if the only reason you chose to be a good person or seek religion is to prevent yourself from being damned eternally... well quite frankly I feel that you've totally missed the point of being Christ-like and living a life that God would be proud of. 

C) It's truly best not to judge. And by you sending me a message like that for no reason whatsoever at 1:30 am ... I'm led to believe that you not only have judged me, but you have taken it upon yourself to analyze your judgement of me and conclude that you, sir, do not think that I would be going to Heaven. 

Here's what you want me to say : I'm an empty soul. I do not have Jesus in my life. I have not accepted Him as my savior. 

Here's the facts : I'm not. I do. I have. And I refuse to allow people like you to assume otherwise just because I do not shove my religion down everyone's throat. Like you do. 

That's it. 

I hope I didn't offend anyone. And if I did... I'm not sorry. This is me. My faith is probably the only part of my life that I'm 100% happy with and sure of. I have more spirit, faith, and love for God in my life than a lot of people I know who claim they do because they go to church every sunday. Which, by the way, was only a tradition started unrightfully by the Catholic church in the 5th century A.D.. Prior to then, EVERYONE observed the Sabbath on Saturdays. The seventh day. Privately. Intimately. On their own. Without any obligatory force coming down upon them to in a sense force them to worship in order to avoid social stigma. Too many people nowadays go to church because they either feel they have to/should... or because its a good social gathering, makes them look good. I'm not saying all people that attend mass regularly do this... But a LOT do. I refuse to allow myself to fall into a pattern of monotony that is in no way DESIRED by me. My private observance of the Sabbath. My weekly readings of specified passages. My decision to celebrate Channuka this year instead of the completely and utterly Christmas. All MY decisions. All things that have made me feel MUCH closer to my religion and to God than I ever could have hoped in my entire life. 

It's fantastic. 

In conclusion, don't you dare come on to me like I'm some lost, hurting, unguided fool who chooses daily to live a life of sin. I don't. Accept it. 

LOVE, 

Me.